“Trust. Trust me.” God has been whispering this to me over the past several months. My life has been one crazy roller coaster ever since last summer. Looking back, I can definitely tell that I have changed a lot since last summer. Maybe no one else can tell…but I can. I have had a lot of new things…I got two jobs (library and Dairy Station) for the first time, which was interesting. Oh snap, and I started college. That was a little crazy! I made new friends. Took lots of pictures. Made lots of memories. Gotten a couple gen eds out of the way (there’s a lot more to go…why do we have SOOO many gen eds?!). But I have a lot of things to look forward, too. I can’t even imagine how much I will change in the [hopefully] four years of college. I know that God has some pretty amazing stuff in store for this girl, if only I would let Him.
Conclusion # 1: In order to move forward, I need to let go. I need to let God do His thing. Without me getting in the way. Trust me, He can do it just fine without me thinking that I can help or somehow do it better…so stupid. I need to let go of my plans, so that He can show me His plans for me. And I know, His plans are so much better than mine! I need to let go of the people, the possessions, the talents/gifts, whatever it is…that I have let define me, so that God will define me. I need Him to tell me who I am.
Conclusion # 2: In order to know His will, I need to seek Him. The other day, I was praying and just pouring out my heart to God…mostly about how confusing everything has been lately and about the whole major thing. I felt like He was telling me to seek Him. You know that verse that says:
Delight yourself in me and I will give you the desires of your heart…
Or something like that. Maybe that’s the answer. Maybe that’s why He isn’t making it easy to decide on a major. Delight myself in the Lord. Seek Him.
Conclusion # 3: I have great friends and I’m excited to see what God does in all of our lives! I have loved getting to know some people at Cedarville and I look forward to getting to know them better this semester as well as getting to know others, as well. Christian friends are such a blessing. It’s the times when I feel awful [because I’m sick] and I’ve just had a bad day…that my best friends hug me in line at Chucks that just makes my life better. I am excited to see what adventures await us in spring semester and I am excited to be a part of their lives and to see where God takes them…and us.