Prayer. Prayer is powerful. Lord, help me to remember that! I find that it is so easy to lose heart and give up. I don’t see an answer immediately. Or maybe it’s because I don’t like the subtle answer that I seem to be getting. When in reality, the truth is right there on a bright Neon sign right in front of me. God has heard me. He has given me an answer, wether I like it or not.
In the words of the author of Ecclesiastes,
“For everything there is a season, and time for every matter under heaven: a time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant and a time to pluck up what is planted; a time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up; a time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance; a time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing; a time to seek, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away; a time to tear, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence, and a time to speak; a time to love, and a time to hate; a time for war, and a time for peace.”
I feel like there was a time to look back and ‘mourn’/regret my mistakes that I made. I did that. But now I feel like God is stretching out His hand to me and help me off of the ground. I can’t stay in that place for any longer. There was a time for those things. It was appropriate. But that time is past. It is SO high-time (maybe even past time, I’m not sure) that I move from my regrets and mistakes and anger into the absolutely beautiful adventures that God has in store for my future if I would just learn how to let go of it all, already!
Honestly, I’m tired of worrying about everything and attempting to manipulating situations so that they might turn out the way that I want them too. I say ‘attempt’ because it doesn’t usually work out like I want them too, anyway! In fact, very rarely! So why do I keep doing that? Making myself more available. Waiting around a little, hoping for a conversation or something. I hate that about myself. So, going back to the prayer thing…I have been praying about this sort of thing a lot and I’m not gonna give up on it (: I think I’m ready to [start trying to] stop doing those kind of things.
As the chapel speaker reminded me this morning, if God wanted someone to cross my path, He would make it happen! Like seriously…nothing could ever get in His way!
Anyway…that was just some of my thoughts that have been helping me and I hope that I have possibly been a little help and an encouragement to you, as well! (: