Tired of Waiting

I’m cleaning. again. I’m sitting at the front desk, attempting to find somethinganything to do. Then I’m rushing home so I can eat, change, and rush off to my other job just one hour after I get off from my first job. I sometimes have to eat dinner in about 5 minutes.

I am wallowing in discontentment. I don’t mean to. But it just seems to happen. I do not love routines. I never have and probably never will. I love to be spontaneous and have fun on a whim. But it’s getting harder and harder to do that with two jobs to keep up with…and those jobs in and of itself is becoming a routine. I definitely do not want to be here forever. But the good news is: I DON’T HAVE TO BE!

I’m tired of waiting for my life to begin. This is my life right now. I hope it’s not going to be this way forever. But this is it right now. Sitting at the front desk and doing nothing seems like a waste of time…with the alternative being getting up and cleaning, which I must admit I hate doing.

But this is it. This is my life right now!

This is what God has called me to do today. Not forever. But today. I may not be able to see an ending of what I am doing now or the beginning that I am hoping for…But God does! While I seem to be in the season of waiting (in many areas), and while I am waiting for God to open a door somewhere, I can praise Him in the hallway. I can do the very best with what He has given me right now. I can participate in the ministries that are set before me and know that it is enough…even if I feel like I’m not making enough of a difference in anyone’s life…even if I don’t necessarily feel like this is the kind of ministry that I should be involved in for forever. It is enough, but Christ is enough in me! I can smile and maybe brighten someone’s day just with a simple smile and kind word. Maybe, just maybe I can make a difference in just one of my coworkers’ lives by not participating in the gossip and other talk when we aren’t busy.

I am tired of waiting. But {I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me} [Phil. 4:13] {…and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us…} [Hebrews 12:1] {Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for him…} [Psalm 37:7]

I can wait. Because He told me too.

I can praise Him through this season of waiting. Because that is ultimately why I was created.

I can be the best ME that I can right now. Because that is all He asks.

I can be content and without complaint. Because He loves me and has given me so much already.

 

Take a second to read these lyrics to one of my favorite songs: “Shepherd” by Bethel. And listen to it if you want too!

In the process
In the waiting
You’re making melodies over me
And your presence
is the promise
For I am a pilgrim on a journey

You will lift my head above the mighty waves
You are able to keep me from stumbling
And my weakness
you are the strength that comes from within
Good shepherd of my soul
Take my hand and lead me on

You make my footsteps and my path secure
So walking on water is just the beginning
Cause my faith to arise, stand at attention
For You are calling me to greater things

Oh
how I love You
how I love You
You have not forsaken me
Oh
How I love You
how I love You
With you is where I want to be