#SundayFunday |Better Version of YOU|

I went to church at Southbrook today. I love that church so much.

Charlie talked about becoming the best version of ourselves.

God is in the business of taking you, {and me}, just as we are and changing us into better versions of ourselves. We were born with the potential to be awesome, to have the right attitudes and motivations, to have the right desires, to serve and bless others with no thought of ourselves… {etc.}, and God is continually molding us into that person that we can become.

He could have chosen to make us into completely different people when we accept him and as we continue to follow him and grow in our faith. He could change our weaknesses {or, more accurately perceived weaknesses} into strength and beauty.

When you accepted Christ, He could have looked at the flaws that you think is what unqualifies you to be used by God and changed them.

You say: But God, I’m an introvert. Maybe if you make me an extrovert, I could be better used by you because I could reach more people.

God says: You are perfect just the way that I created you. I will perfect your tendency of being an introvert so you know when to step out of your comfort zone and talk to people, and when it’s much better for your health {and others’!} if you step back for a bit and have some time for yourself to re-charge. Besides, who’s going to be able to speak to the introverts if I made all of my children extroverts? Nobody would understand each other!

You say: But God, I am insecure. I’m not a great speaker. I don’t come up with great one-liners that people will remember forever because it’s so powerful. I can’t help people like she can.

God says: You’re right. You can’t help people like she/he can. Because I have made you to help people and bless them in a way that only you can! 🙂 You have weaknesses, but that’s when my strength is revealed in you and made evident to both you and others through you.

In your moments of greatest weakness, I can come in and give you a better version of yourself.

God is making you more like you than you’ve ever been before! Isn’t that awesome?! He doesn’t look at you and want to change everything about you and completely wipe your unique qualities when you turn to Him. He looks at you and loves what he sees. He sees every weakness that has slowly been changing into strengths. He sees every flaw we think will never go away {and maybe we’re right…} but He knows that there is a purpose for that and soon, we will see why that wasn’t a mistake after all. He sees all of your potential, all of the clutter inside of your heart, the baggage that has been weighing you down for far too long, He sees the talents that come so naturally to you that you don’t even think they’re talents {but they are}, He sees… {and He loves you, right now, just as you are}. He’s changing you into someone better, yes. But that ‘someone better’ is simply a better version of you to glorify and worship God with all that you do, {and to bless others with everything that you are, in a way that only you can}.

I hope that encourages you like it encouraged me ❤

#WednesdayWorkoutBlog |Run More|

It’s Thursday, so obviously it’s time for a Wednesday Workout Post…haha (yeah, sorry).

First of all, I feel like I have to say that I feel like a hypocrite right now as I write these (hopefully) encouraging words…I haven’t run in so long (probably a month or so), and I feel super bad about it…so, just know that I am writing these words more to myself than to anyone else…

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Running is difficult. Working out is difficult. If it was easy, everyone would do it. But do you know what makes it great? It’s hard. And not everybody can do it. But if you’ve kept at it all of this time, through perceived failure, ‘bad’ runs, and disappointments, I fully believe that you’ve got what it takes. Some days it sucks. Some days it actually feels really awesome, though! But the point is, if (actually I should say when), running is hard, that is the very moment when you should push yourself a little bit longer than you think you can go. That is when your real strength shines through. Not your own strength, but God’s. Because when you are weak, then you are strong {2 Corinthians 12:10}.

For whatever reason, running is hard and it seems like the longer you run, in some ways, the harder it gets. Sure, you get in better shape and you know what it feels like to have a great run. But the longer you run, the more tired you can get. The more times that you go running, the more your mind often starts to talk yourself out of going on another run, because all of your worst runs come to mind. Maybe this is me, but it’s easier to forget the amazing runs that you’ve had and you are focused on the times when you have felt awful, so why would you want to put yourself through that again?!

But those are the moments that you must push through. The hardest, most difficult moments, are also the most important. Those are the moments when you really decide whether you’re going to get back up again and keep fighting, or give up forever. It’s your choice. To keep going. To keep running. To keep improving and chasing the impossible, only to stand back and watch God help you achieve what you thought was impossible. To keep achieving greatness. It’s your choice.

{And it’s the same in life}.

{Love Letters} Disappointments

I know the hard things that you have had to deal with recently, My Child. I know that they were hard for you because it meant facing up to some old wounds that have been hidden for quite some time now. It meant taking that difficult, struggling step forward…one that you have been afraid of taking for so long now. It meant speaking, when it would have been easier to stay quiet. It meant disappointing them farther, knowing that they wouldn’t understand and that they would take it the wrong way, no matter how you said it. It meant possibly straining an already disintegrating relationship.

But you knew where you were wasn’t where I wanted you. It wasn’t my best. There were so many things holding you back there and it was destructive for you. I am so proud of you for going through with what you knew you had to in order to get back to the place emotionally and spiritually that I want you to be at. You dove into the unknown, fearing the outcome.

And I know, despite your hope that they wouldn’t respond as you feared they would, you are disappointed that it ended up the way it did. I see your heart and I know that you just want to follow me and get to the best places for you possible. And if that means going through the hard stuff, I know that you will do it. You have a ton to go through right now, and sometimes that means you just have to do what is best for you.

I see your pain. I see your wounds that have never healed. They are real. They are painful. I affirm you for working through those things, because I know it isn’t easy. What you feel is valid and painful. But never forget, Daughter, that I am your safe place.

“He only is my rock and my salvation, my fortress; I shall not be shaken. On God rests my salvation and my glory; my mighty Rock, my refuge is God. Trust in Him at all times, O People; pour our your heart before him; God is a refuge for us.” {Psalm 62:6-8}

You don’t even know what to think right now, I know. Start to let my peace flow through you, Child. Because you did the right thing!

Awake my Soul to sing

With your breath in me

I will worship

You taught my feet

to Dance upon disappointment

And I, I will worship.

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Let the weary rise

Lift their eyes to see

Your love crushing every lie

Every doubt and fear {Heroes by Bethel}

{I will worship. Through the pain. Through disappointment. I will trust and I will worship.}

I love you, Child. Keep pushing through and I will start to mend your pain and heal your wounds and then, you will be able to truly start living a complete, full life through me. But for now, hold on and do the best you can. Life is coming!

#MessyMonday |The Battle Is Strong| {But you are STRONGER!}

{How about a #MessyMONDAY post on Friday, huh?! hahaha}

This morning while I was in class, my boyfriend facebook messaged me (while he was in class) something that his bible prof said. He said:

“The spirit will come to you when you start to write the words of God” – Dr. Kimble

And King sent that to me because of when I used to write what I called ‘love letters’ from God. I haven’t done that in a while, but maybe I should pick that back up again because I do believe that that statement really is true!

I don’t know about you, but I find that it is easy to not ‘feel’ God’s presence. To lose sight of what is important to Him. To think that the Spirit isn’t drawing near to us and isn’t here.

There is definitely a battle happening here. For me. Right now.

Last year was by far the most difficult year that I had ever had. I was struggling with depression. I was struggling with relationships. I realized really for the first time how many unresolved issues that I have to start dealing with. Second semester my school credit load definitely picked up a lot as well. To put it lightly, I felt like I was drowning, but I could see everyone else breathing and laughing and having a great time. And as hard as I tried, I couldn’t swim over to them. I felt something…someone continually pulling me down and away from the people that could have pointed me towards finding healing, peace, restoration, and happiness.

I had high hopes for this year as I stepped onto Campus as a Senior (pt. o n e). I was excited to build new relationships and really focus on enjoying relationships more and on a deeper level than before. I was excited to see how God could deeper my relationship with my boyfriend. I was excited for the volleyball season. And I was excited that I only had 13 credits. I felt much more at peace. I had thought through a lot this summer, and I felt like I was at a much better place than I was when I left Junior year [way] behind me. And I still believe that that is true. I am at a better place than I was last year, thanks to what God has done and shown me and spoken to me about this summer. But I’m definitely not there yet. And something that I’ve been thinking a lot about recently is that…

Maybe Satan is fighting for me to stay exactly where I was last semester.

I’ve never thought too much about whether Satan is fighting against me (or God either, really) before, but what if that’s true? Maybe He wants me to stay where I was physically, emotionally, and spiritually, because that’s a victory in his book. If he can keep me from making to much forward motion and keeping me in a place of sadness, depression, etc., maybe he has won. It’s more of a battle, coming back here with all of these people and this physical place and STILL being in school, than I thought it would be. But I’ve never been a girl to give up easily, and this is certainly no exception. I told myself before this semester started that I would never go back to that. I would continue to make better choices, when it came to responses to circumstances (and people), in particular. I wouldn’t get so stressed out. I would focus on relationships. I would be confident in how I play volleyball and how I look and how other’s see me (or rather I just wouldn’t care so much and I would just assume that they like me and that they are telling me the truth whenever they say something nice about me). That can still happen. So, maybe I didn’t have a great start (well, I did, but this week was rough). I can’t let Satan win. I can’t let him keep me in the same unhealthy place that I was last year/semester.

I want to live healthy. Happy. Fulfilled. Beautiful. I want to be that girl. And I still can.

And so can you!

I don’t know your story. But maybe you’ve wondered the same thing, either in the past or right now. You can be healthy, happy, fulfilled, beautiful (and other healthy terms that you want to be!). And I want to blog more and challenge myself (and, obviously YOU too!!) about what it means to live that kind of light. Maybe this is all that God is asking us to do right now:

“The Lord will fight for you, and you have only TO BE SILENT.” {Exodus 14:14}

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