{Create} Bullet Journal, part three

If you missed my first two posts about my bullet journal, check them out first, or dive right in here if you’d rather πŸ™‚ Thanks for stopping by!

 

Alright, so….this is another page that I have in my BUJO. This is my monthly tracker. This was obviously just my first tracker page, and it gets a LOT better than this, I just wanted to show you the first one so you can know how I started, and why I eventually (not long after) changed the way it looked and now I love it a lot more!Β IMG_7117

The purpose of the monthly habit tracker is to basically know what you want to be doing, see what you are actually doing consistently, and see how the two line up with each other. It’s always a good thing to have goals, but a goal without a plan is just a wish, right? These are basically attainable goals, healthy habits are what I call them, with a way to track whether you are doing them or not. And, at the end of the month, you always have a chance to evaluate the previous month to see what you need to change for the next month (this is definitely a step I wouldn’t skip!) During this evaluation, you have the opportunity to see which habits you are not consistently accomplishing. And at the end of the month, you can either decide how you can better accomplish those habits/goals for the next month, or you can decide it’s not worth it and continue working on other habits/goals. It’s completely up to you! Another important piece of advice is this: DON’T GET DOWN ON YOURSELF!!! Remember…grace, not perfection! ❀ It’s easy to look at your habit tracker after a month and realize that you did horrible that month. Whether you weren’t consistent and diligent with filling it in (ummm…that’s been me a LOT, which is definitely something I’m going to keep working at to get better at, so this is actually useful for me!), or you aren’t diligent in some (or many) of the habits that you want to start/become better at…However, I think it’s important to look at this tracker with eyes of grace. Realize that you’re not going to fill in every single day. Or you’re not going to do as well as you would have hoped every single day. But that’s just an opportunity to do better tomorrow, right?!

I’ve also changed a few of the categories since then, but here’s my list (at the time I drew this first habit tracker):

  • Wake by 9am
  • Wake by 8:30am
    • I had both of these on there because this was during school, so this is what worked in my schedule. And the idea was to just draw a box on the days when it applied (MWF for 9am, TR for 8:30am) so that I would just color in those boxes when I accomplished my goal, and the other days when it didn’t apply it wouldn’t matter. Make sense?
  • Hydrate
  • Yoga (still haven’t gotten into this as much as I wanted to by now, but it’s important to me, so it’s still on my list!)
  • Cardio/strength training
  • Food Log (I still have this on my list, but I haven’t been doing this at all. I might keep it on to see if it helps me during school, but right now I don’t really feel like I need this…)
  • No pop (I had the bad habit of drinking quite a bit of pop for the last year and a half, probably…and I decided I needed to change that, starting with a 30-day challenge, which I will go into later!)
  • Fitness progress photo (This only applies for the first day of the month, because that is when I decided to take a photo of myself to track my weight loss/fitness progress…it can be whatever day you choose, just try to stick to the same day each month, if possible)
  • Read bible/pray (not sure why I had this on one line, but for the first tracker, I did…)
  • Journal
  • Gratitude log
  • New Blog post
  • Instagram photo challenge (I was doing #100happydays for a while, which I LOVED!)
  • Photography bucket list (I have a long list of items I want to take photos of, so I wanted to track when I actually did some of that. I haven’t been doing that, though.)
  • No spend
  • Review budget
  • Expenses recorded
  • Pm meditation
  • Plan for next week/next month (For next week planning, that should be each sunday, ideally…and next month, you could set aside a couple days at the end of the previous month to plan out the next month and draw the appropriate pages needed to save you time)
  • Sleep by 12am
  • Tithe
  • Save for Thailand

As I said, my list has changed slightly over the past couple of months (and the look has changed a LOT), so I will get to that when I get to those pictures! πŸ™‚

It isn’t set up this way here, but basically I have a few different categories that I wanted to be consistent in, or have better habits in. The first one is 1) Health. Simple. But necessary! Basically anything to do with health. Exercise routines. Hydration. Cutting out toxic food or drinks to your health. Sleeping earlier/better/etc. Whatever works for YOU in your schedule, and whatever aligns with your own personal goals! Put it down to track it! The second section is 2) Creative/spiritual. Okay, so it’s kind of two put together. But here I put things like reading my bible, praying, and gratitude log…as well as creative things I wanted to get better at doing, such as blogging and photo challenges. Put whatever spiritual habits & creative habits you are doing and want to track, or habits that you want to start, here. The third section is 3) Financial. Boring, yeah, but necessary. Tracking the days when you don’t spend is a great thing! It makes me feel proud of myself that I resisted buying something I didn’t need, or going out to eat, or buying coffee (when I didn’t need to, or didn’t have plans). And all of the things listed there align with my personal goals, although they keep changing slightly, as my goals change or I see what is realistic to me. I even included a specific saving goal that I have: Thailand. Again, put down whatever works for YOU and whatever will help you meet your goals (I will go more into goals later, too!). And don’t be hard on yourself if it takes you a while to even get consistent with coloring in the boxes each night (I would suggest doing it every night before going to sleep, because that is when you can best remember what you did that day!). It might take a while, and that’s okay. Give yourself the grace that you give so easily to others. And then slowly try to get consistent in important habits to you. And don’t start off with HUGE expectations for yourself to start ten new habits all at once, and be good at all of them immediately! Start off with two or three, and even then you might not be consistent as you wanted to be. That’s okay, just so you’re doing something and you’re trying! That’s all that matters.

Okay…

WHY IT WORKS:

  • I loved seeing all of the healthy habits that I wanted to get into all in one place! I had never done that before, and I especially liked when I was consistent at filling things in enough to get several pretty colors on the page.
  • This page helped me see what is really important to me and, at the end of the month when it’s time to draw a new one, I had the opportunity to not only evaluable the design, but also the habits so that I could make sure what I was ‘tracking’ and trying to get more healthy at in my life was really working for me and pulling me up, instead of dragging me down.

WHY IT DOESN’T WORK:

  • I didn’t like this design at all. It didn’t come off looking like I wanted it too, so I just had to use it until the next month when I could come up with something different (or find new inspiration for a different monthly tracker, which is what I did!)
  • The design was messy.
  • I wasn’t consistent in tracking my habits, which meant it wasn’t useful to me. (Yet).

 

Next page is my month-at-a-glance page! I believe this is the only page like this that I’ve done, but that’s mostly because currently, in the stage of life that I am in, I don’t need pages like this during the summer. I will probably pick the month-at-a-glance page back up once school starts again. I’m not sure if I’ll go with a design like this or try something different, but this seemed to work fairly well for me.Β Β IMG_7118

Basically the purpose of this page was to put all of the important dates in one place for the whole entire month! It was especially important for the month of April, because that is the month that literally everything is due, with finals coming up…so final projects, papers, etc.! At the top I put an observation of what I could do better for next time so that I wouldn’t forget it when it came time to draw another month-at-a-glance page.

This is a simple design, but simplicity isn’t necessarily a bad thing. Obviously all I did was put the day on the far left, next to the date. And for each date that had something important, I would write it there. Due dates were obviously some of the most important things for me to have there, but I also have birthdays are important people in my life, as well as a couple scheduled events coming up on campus. And that’s it!

WHY IT WORKS:

  • It helped me to really see what I had due each day, so that I could better see how I should break up the work to get everything done on time.
  • It allowed me to remind myself when birthdays of special people in my life, as well as important and fun events were, so that I would know without having to look it up somewhere else.
  • I could cross off the projects as I finished them, which I did more at the beginning

WHY IT DOESN’T WORK:

  • It got a little confusing, when there was more than one due date or important date on one day.
  • It looks a tad sloppy, but maybe that’s just because I crossed things off, etc. I’m not sure how to fix that, as of yet.
  • It’s not SUPER cute. It works, and it’s not bad…it’s just not super fun, or whatever.

 

My next page has become CRUCIAL for me! Up until now, I never had a good system for tracking what I was spending and all of that…I never had something that made sense to me, and was cute and fun and useful…all at the same time. This changed that, for me. Maybe in the future I will reevaluate this page and see if there is anything else that I need to add, but for now…this is it! It has a simple layout, but it still works for me! (I did add a date section in my next layout of this page, as I marked at the top to change for next time!)

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The purpose for this page may seem obvious, but it’s simply to track my expenses. A big part of this for me, was color coding everything. I came up with different categories:

  • School
  • Necessary
  • Unnecessary/shouldn’t have/ unhealthy
  • Fun outings
  • Gifts

And that’s all of the sections that I’ve needed so far. So, the purpose of color coding everything is (besides making it look prettier), so that I could easily see where my money Β is going so that I can change things when necessary for next month. Again, it’s not about looking at how many ‘unnecessary’ items and judging myself and tearing myself down. It’s simply about looking at how I spent my money this month, so that I can be better for next month. I have been trying to cut down on my unnecessary spending, so that is a huge goal for me each month. Design and add whatever categories that works best for you!

WHY IT WORKS:

  • It’s a cute system that made me actually WANT to record my expenses, for once!
  • I can really see in what areas I did well in that month, and in what areas I really need to work on…because of the color code!

WHY IT DOESN’T WORK:

  • As I said, I forgot a date section in this design…but I changed that for the next expenses spread.

This next page is what I have for saving for a specific goal of mine. I think it’s a cute way to see how much I’ve saved, and how much I still need to save (obviously I’m very far away at this point!).

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It’s simple. Obviously, I just color in one of the boxes (or however many) when I put that money into the envelope!

This next page, I haven’t really used yet. Again, it doesn’t really apply to me much at this point in my life, at least during the summer. There are probably cuter ways of designing a grocery list in your BUJO, but I haven’t looked into that yet, because I haven’t even used this one yet! But this would get the job done and the good thing about having it here in my BUJO, is that I would always have this notebook with me, so it would be incredibly easy to jot down things I need as I think about them, so I don’t forget! Β IMG_7121

Any tips/tricks/inspiration that you have? What do you think of what I wrote/showed you? I have a whole lot more left to go, and I hope you’re as passionate about this as I am! πŸ˜‰ Happy Thursday! ❀

Healthy, Happy, Beautiful | Saying No.

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If you’ve talked to me much about life, you probably know that myΒ slogan for the lifestyle that I want to live is: Healthy, Happy, Beautiful. If you ask me what that means to me, that is a much more complicated answer. I’m still figuring it out…day-by-day. But that’s really cool to me, because I know that it has deep meanings that God is still showing me glimpses of, each and every day. What kind of life do you desire? Are you living it? I think so many of us just accept what is ‘happening’ to us, as what our life is going to forever look like. I don’t think that’s right. Yes, there are things we don’t get to choose. And that’s okay. But there are also ways that we can change how we live, in ways that align with our personal goals! {Goals are a FANTASTIC thing, btw! Please have personal goals!!}

What do you feel about saying no? Yep. I felt it. That shudder. That uncomfortable feeling. Looking away. Feeling awkward. Shaking your head slightly. You see, somewhere we got the idea that we’re not allowed to say no. Especially to service. Well, I say that’s bullshit. How is that how God would want us to live? Spreading ourselves so thin that we no longer have the energy or enthusiasm to pursue what we really love? I think that’s missing our calling. When everyone does everything, nobody is placed where they are gifted! That takes the joy out of serving, out of loving. We instantly feel guilt and shame when we are about to say no to doing something good, so we say yes…even though we know that means letting other priorities go, and even though we know that we aren’t excited about doing this task and we can’t see how this is what is good and right for YOU (but that’s a selfish way to think, so you better just shut up and get stuff done!).

When are we going to be brave enough to say no?! That’s not my gift. That’s not my calling. I am aligning myself with Christ, and I am able to hear his voice. I don’t feel drawn to do that. I feel like I am fake when I am in that place. That’s not even a healthy place for me to be, so I have to say no. I know that I would be doing that for all of the wrong reasons…mostly because people expect me to, and they unknowingly place guilt on me for saying no.

Maybe there’s a better way of living. What if we would all just say yes to those things that excite us? That fill us with joy, and things we long to do? What if that wasn’t selfish? But that is really following what God has for us. What if what you want is…GOOD? Not bad, not selfish, not terrible, not vain. But good. What if what you love to do aligns with the way that God wants you to serve, and love on other people?

Maybe this didn’t say much of anything. A lot of questions. A lot of random, incomplete thoughts. But I hope it meant something to somebody. It means a lot to me. Think about it. What does God have for YOU? Is it loving people in the church, by serving them, helping people, etc.? If so, that’s great! But…aren’t there other ways of serving and loving people? How do your spiritual gifts affect your service and love? Are you using them? Think about it πŸ™‚

{Create} Bullet Journal, part two

Check out my first post about my fairly new bullet journal system here to read the intro and some of the reasons why I love it so much, if you missed it! πŸ™‚ Then keep reading πŸ™‚

Alright! Let’s get into my first few pages, and what I’ve done with MY bullet journal…what works and what doesn’t really work, so that I know what to change for next time…and so that you can get an idea for what might work, or not so much, for you! πŸ˜€

First things first, the index!

A reason I LOVE this notebook is that it comes with an index written in, and all of the pages are already numbered, as well! So it’s SUPER easy to fill out this index as you keep adding pages to your bullet journal. You simply write the page number(s) down and what it’s about, and then you can continue creating new pages, or filling them out, without having to take MORE time to number pages by hand, or create an index, or something like that! MINE is colorful, because, as I said before, I LOVE COLOR! And also, I typically just write it down in the same color that I was using for that page (laziness… haha). But yours doesn’t have to be, OR the colors could have more significance (which would be a much better idea, and something I should think about for next time haha). So you could color code the areas of interest. Another thing to note is, you don’t have to put every page into the index! In fact, I would suggest not to! Just the ones that you want to remember and probably go back to. So that means NOT putting the weekly spreads in the index, which is a lot of pages that you don’t have to log into the index, which is nice!

A few of the pages that I included in the index is:

  • Gratitude log
  • Habit tracker
  • Expenses
  • Monthly goals

Etc…

But it’s up to you! What would you like to easily be able to find again? Include, or skip, whatever you would like, since this system is all about what works for YOU and is ultimately for you! πŸ˜€

My very next page after the index is my Key:

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When I finish this notebook and get another one, I will probably set the key up better than I have here. I need to figure out my color coding system here better, so that I can better use it throughout the notebook with everything I need it for. But these are many of the symbols that are commonly used in the bullet journal community, so I listed them all here. I think they are helpful. I may or may not include this list, or at least this exhaustive list, in every bullet journal that I have in the future because I will get used to using these symbols, etc., but for the first bullet journal, I think it’s a good reminder to have them all listed here. But I may need to do some revising for the future KEY in my next bullet journal.

Another page that I am trying to keep up with is my Gratitude Log.

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So far, this is the only design that I have tried. Any ideas for other designs? I like this one, but I’m always open for suggestions! I think it’s cute, but very, very simple, which this VERY non-artist needs! Anyway, basically I just draw a banner with Gratitude Log written in it (as you can see), with the date, along with five dots for each date to list 5 things each day that I am thankful for. Some days I obviously don’t get that done, but that’s the plan, anyway! Gratitude helps you focus on the little things that we so often overlook, and it helps us look at life more positively. Some days it’s rough to find even a couple things that I am really, truly thankful for that day…but over time I start to appreciate those things more and more as I have to search my head and heart to find those blessings in that particularly hard day. If you aren’t currently doing something like this, I would suggest that you try it! It’s really great! πŸ™‚ Also, I usually draw out only a couple of these pages at a time. You can do as many at a time as you want…I just using do a couple pages, and then when it’s all filled in, I just go to the next blank page and draw out the next few pages! (:

Okay! So, how about a look at one of my weekly spreads?? This was actually my very first!

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At some point I would really love to get better at calligraphy, because that would just make it look sooo much better. But I decided to keep it simple, especially at first, with the words and all. These first few spreads are quite busy, because this is at the end of the school year when everything is crazy! So anyway, let me walk you through this a bit πŸ™‚

The lines at the top, before the day and the date with the numbers in between them are supposed to be the hours of the day. So, I color coded them so that I colored in when I’m supposed to be sleeping, working out, in class, at work, etc…so then theoretically the blank spaces would be ‘open’ or ‘free’ time. Granted, this time could also be a time when you intentionally plan to get stuff done, because you can see that you don’t have anything planned yet and it’s an open period of time to get work done. That is a good idea. So I have that at the beginning of many of my weekly spreads, though not all.

WHY IT WORKS:

  • Theoretically it sounds like an awesome, and useful, idea. It SHOULD help me with productivity and planning out my time a little, without having to plan out a time for everything specifically.
  • I love the extra colors πŸ˜‰

WHY IT DOESN’T WORK:

  • I don’t know that I used it to its full potential. Maybe it’s just laziness (probably), but I know I didn’t use my ‘blank space time’ like I should have, to be more productive. But I still think it’s a great idea! You just have to remember to be intentional about all of your time!

The flags are obviously the date, and I like it! It’s colorful and fun, BUT ALSO VERY SIMPLE! (: Other than the obvious task lists that I have up for each day, I also included something that I was counting down to at the time: Graduation! I think it’s fun to look forward to things, and it helps to know that it’s coming up sooner than you may have thought! During that time, it felt like graduation would NEVER get here and school would never end, so it helped me to be able to cross that off at the end of each day (or whatever) and then the next day, I would be able to SEE that it really was one day closer! I loved this! I will be adding the next thing I’m looking forward to on my pages soon, hopefully.

That’s basically what I think needs to be said about that weekly spread, and those pages. Please ask if you have any questions, comment with any suggestions or thoughts, or whatever! What do you think so far?? πŸ™‚ Next post coming soon!

{Create} Bullet Journal, part one

Okay, so I promised to write a post (or a couple of posts) about my bullet journal, so I hope people read it and enjoy it πŸ™‚

First, if you don’t know what it is, here’s my explanation:

A totally customizable, cute planner system

Simple. Right?

Well, there’s soooo much more (better things!) to it than that, and I’m going to let you in to what I have done with MY bullet journal so far (I’ve only had mine since the very end of the school year, so I haven’t been doing it very long at all).

Here’s what I LOVE about the system, and why I think it’s a good fit for me (and why it might be for you!):

  • It’s a planner so I can write down all of my to-do lists and deadlines so I don’t forget anything. I figured out a WHILE ago that I need some kind of system to write these things in, or I will “forget” everything, and NEVER get anything done!
  • It’s COMPLETELY customizable! This means that you can make it as cute, or simple, as you like! For me, when things are cute, I am MUCH more likely to actually use them. So, this is why I love the bullet journal set up soooo much! If you are an artist, this also might be a good choice for you (and it will look MUCH better than mine! lol).
  • It allows me to track whatever I want to. Not only is it a place for me to write my To-Do lists and Deadlines (especially needed during the school year)…but it also allows me to document lists, track habits, create 30-day challenges, etc.! But more on that later…
  • You can add as much, or as little, as you want to. And IT’S ALL UP TO YOU! Literally the whole system is up to you, which is great! If you want to add in all the details, you can! If you want to just jot down a few lines and you’ll remember what they mean, that’s just as good!
  • If something doesn’t turn out the way you think it should, OR it doesn’t work for you…you can change it next time! The whole system is built on GRACE, not perfection (at least that’s my motto for it!). For example, if you draw out a weekly spread, and then when you’re done you find out that you HATE how it looks, you don’t ever have to use it again. You can go ahead and use it for that week (to not waste paper & space…but you don’t have to), and then reevaluate what you could do better next time, or change the look altogether! OR, you draw out a habit tracker one way, but then as you go realize that it doesn’t look like you thought it would, or it doesn’t work as well as you want it too, next month you can try something new, which is awesome! Or if you try something out, and then realize that you really didn’t need to include it, or it doesn’t help you…you’ve learned and you won’t have to draw it again! However on the flip-side, if something TOTALLY works for you, you have every chance to make it even BETTER next time, and you learn and grow and your productivity and happiness really should grow as well!
  • It’s fun, and not a boring recording of things to do as ‘normal’ planners are. I love cute things. And I think it’s fun to look up inspiration on pinterest (seriously, look it up because there are sooo many good ideas, and that’s where I got pretty much all of my ideas…at least what I started with!). And, even though I completely suck at drawing, I think it’s fun to try to do artsy things, even if they have to be simple because I’m not that great. If you’re amazing at calligraphy, your bullet journal would be sooo beautiful! I might have to learn to be better at that! But I don’t see using my bullet journal as a boring thing that I ‘should’ do, to make sure I get things done, etc…as I often saw my planner as. My bullet journal actually kinda excites me (lol laugh if you want…), and I enjoy logging new things, recording things, trying to get healthier habits so that I can live the life that I want to live, etc.

That’s enough about that. You probably get the point. I think it’s awesome. What do you think so far??

Okay…first of all….WHAT EQUIPMENT DO YOU NEED/DO YOU HAVE?

Well…I didn’t buy a whole lot, because I am not in the position to be able to do that 😦 Some day, if I’m still into this (which I probably will be), and I have a little more extra money, I may invest in more ‘equipment’ for the bullet journal so that it looks nicer, it’s more fun, etc. For example, I’ve heard you can get really cute stickers or stamps that would spice it up nicely, without you having to be a good artist.

  • Pens.
    • Alright, so good pens really matter. And it’s all up to you on what pens you want to get! I know you can get nicer pens than I have, but I decided to just use the ones that I already had lying around…for me, I LOVE colors, so I had to have plenty of colorful pens! I’ve always been this way, and about each school year (or a little longer than that) I buy a colorful pen set from Walmart (and I use them, a LOT!). For me, a bullet journal with NO COLOR would be absolutely boring. Up to you, tho. That’s what I have.
  • Notebook.
    • Oh, did I mention that the bullet journal is really just in a notebook? Therefore, you can do whatever you want as far as which notebook you want to use! I know they make specific notebooks that are better for Bullet Journals, but if you want to go a cheaper option, there’s no shame and you could probably make it work just fine. I got theΒ LeuchtturmΒ notebook. I got blue this time, but I believe there are a couple other different colors that I will need to try next time!

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So, again…the equipment is up to you! How much do you want to spend? You CAN buy more expensive, or more stuff…but the point is, you can do it very simply with nice pens you already have, and maybe buying a nice notebook, like one of the ones I got. Go for it!

I will write more on this soon! πŸ™‚ Tell me what you think about this so far πŸ™‚ Comments? What do you think about it? Are you thinking about trying it? What are your reasons to start a bullet journal?! Questions about how it works, or anything like that? I will show photos in my next post about some of my logs, trackers, and weekly spreads.

For a little while…

As many of you probably know, I have the amazing opportunity to work at Gull Lake Ministries this summer! For those of you who don’t know much about it, it is a family camp in Michigan. A couple days ago I got back from an 11-day orientation, and I will be returning to officially work there during all of July into early August!

Well, orientation was a whirl-wind. Quite literally (almost). It was crazy. It was very busy, with a lot going on. Some bad attitudes on my part were brought up in my mind, hoping that Christ will help me get rid of those as I prepare to actually start working there for about a month. Maybe to you, a month doesn’t sound like a long time at all. Okay, in reality, it’s really not. But let me tell you something…

EACH DAY DURING ORIENTATION FELT LIKE A WEEK!

Not that that is a bad thing, but when Orientation was finally over, I couldn’t believe that I had just been there for a week in a half. I felt like I hadn’t been home in forever! So, anyway, yeah…being there for an entire month scares me a little. Okay, maybe a L O T . Not that that’s bad. I think maybe that’s a good thing. Anyway, let me stop rambling…

I just wanted to share a few things that God has put on my heart and taught me…in 11 days! at orientation.

  1. Working at a camp is hard! So, I knew it would be hard. Obviously. But it was harder than I thought it might be. In fact, during the first couple of days, I really didn’t think I would be able to make it through orientation. 11 days felt like forever to stay there, and then I had to come back and work for AN ENTIRE MONTH??! How in the world would that even be possible?! I thought I was wayyyy in over my head here! This was NOT comfortable at all. I felt like I wasn’t qualified enough and fears tumbled through my head about not being able to do what was asked of me and being completely embarrassed and having to leave.
  2. But it’s so worth it.Β Did I mention that I was only there for 11 days?? But after that time, I didn’t want to leave. Maybe not all of my motivation came from wanting to serve the Lord and others and all of that… (I had to admit, that wasn’t a lot of it, although I will say that I really am excited to see what God speaks to my heart through all of this this summer!). But I really didn’t want to leave. I had made friends…people that I didn’t know at ALL (except King). At the very beginning of orientation, Ambush (one of the leaders) said that we would become close to these people. At that point, I really wasn’t all that sure about that…but it’s amazing what happens while you are there, working side-by-side with these people! I was so sad to leave the people that were first half, especially, because I knew that I wouldn’t be able to see them hardly at all anymore!
  3. Service is hard, but it’s possible. I remember thinking several times throughout orientation that I might not be cut out for this. I’m not “good” at service. I didn’t think I was “enough of a servant” to do well in this job, in this place. But for some reason, I got through all of orientation. I even enjoyed certain parts of service, when my head was in the right place!
  4. God knows where I’m at. And He even has me there for a reason! I applied to work as a counselor. I got kitchen. YES, you heard me right. KITCHEN! Me? Ha! If you know me much at all, you know that I don’t spend a ton of time in the kitchen. Not that I hate it, or I’m terrible at it…I just haven’t spent the time learning all of that stuff…growing up, I was much more interesting in being outside. Being in the kitchen is HARD WORK. And people don’t really even think about you being in there all day. It may seem easy from the outside, but believe me, IT’S NOT! You are literally in there ALL day, working 14+ hour days, just working 0n all of the meals for the day! You are standing on your feet all day, until they get numb…and then you’re STILL standing on your feet for hours and hours and hours after that! What has helped me is singing along with the Christian songs that are often playing in the kitchen all day. This helps me to get my head in the right place and focus on having fun and focusing on Christ, instead of my aching feet, how hot or cold I am (grilling 100+ hamburgers, or organizing the fridges and freezers, I’ve done both!), etc. It is a struggle to not want to be recognized by other staff more often by the hard work that I am doing, but I know that I should be doing this for God, anyway. It’s rough and some days are much harder than others, but overall I actually am starting to enjoy myself in there, WHEN my head and heart are set on the right things!
  5. Little blessings, are BIG blessings! So, at camp, I’m not allowed to spend much time at ALL with my boyfriend. I completely understand why and it is really a good thing. But, it’s tough. Especially some days. I have REALLY good days, and then I have some not so good days. I have thoroughly enjoyed getting to know the other staff that I work with, which I may not have done so well if I was ‘allowed’ to spend more time with King. Also, I have come to appreciate the tiny little blessings, which now seem like a huge deal to me, which I LOVE. While at camp, I appreciate being able to catch a glimpse of King, even if he’s across the room, and smile at each other. That helps me know that I’m not alone, and that He is thinking about me too, and that He loves me. And I am appreciating more and more the small amounts of time that we DO get to talk to each other. Even if it’s asking what he did that day. Or how it went. Doesn’t have to be deep. We don’t really have time for deep conversations, at least in person (also, writing letters, although hard, is completely AWESOME!), but that’s okay too! It’s these little things that are sooo so amazing and I absolutely love!

Maybe there’s more, I’m not sure at the moment, though. If I can learn that many things in 11 days, think of what God can do in a whole month! As I mentioned before, yes, I am a little scared. A month is a longgg time. I’m gonna be tired. Irritated. Exhausted. And probably many other feelings such as that. But I also know that I’m gonna be alright, because God has put me at GULL LAKE MINISTRIES, and in the job KITCHEN, for a very specific purpose. It wasn’t a mistake. So I can do it!

 

Also, if you could send me encouragement/letters/etc. while I am there in July, that would be completely awesome!! I will include more information on that later, as it comes closer! ❀